I wrote this entry as a draft a few days ago... since that time I have, upon recommendation, viewed the documentary film "The Secret" and the title just doesn't fit anymore. If you haven't seen it or heard of "The Secret", I highly recommend it. In a nutshell, "The Secret" is the Law of Attraction and how to apply it to your life to create the life you want. I know, I know... it sounds a little fluffy. But, it's opened my eyes to how much negative energy I was casting on our experience. I always refer to our current situation as a journey ... but in reality, it IS our life at this moment. And it would be much better to cast positive energy and thoughts our way. Positive thoughts nurture healing.
So on first draft I was so excited to take Makenna's cast OFF. I still am, but have since realized what a dichotomy that created in my mind. And I realized that every day I spent looking forward to taking the cast off, I was probably missing some of the joy that was right in front of me. Not probably... absolutely missing it.
If CAST OFF equals freedom and joy, then what must CAST ON equal?
By default it must be: Trapped and miserable. And that's just not true. And I am not saying that I won't enjoy her time out of the cast, because I will. But, I have to make a conscious effort to not associate CAST OFF with freedom. I need to remind myself that she does have FREEDOM IN THE CAST... when she is in her cast, her spine is FREE TO GROW STRAIGHT! No longer a slave to gravity and scoliosis :) What a wonderful gift.
With that thought, I feel free,too. Finally. Free.